*Sigh* Write again in a few days and I’ll have my sister deal with you when I get home. She enjoys these messages. They’re good stress relief for her.

NOT a goodbye.

I can’t stand goodbyes. I must emphasize that this is NOT a goodbye. I’m simply over sexually exploiting myself for money. It is time that I struggle to support my family the hard way. As long as I use caming as a crutch to get by financially I will never move up in the world.

It is horrible for me psychologically to depend on my appearance to make money. I know there are people that enjoy my company and conversation but that is not where the money is unfortunately. I want to like my legs because they give me the ability to walk, and my ass because it provides me with cushion when I sit (although I do still wish it had a little more cushion to it). I would like to be able to tell people to go fist their dickholes when they make comments about my body instead of feeling like I deserve it because of the industry I’ve worked in for so long now. I’m not saying I’m going to let myself go and become obese (although I may grow a bush for a short period of time, ya know… just to see what thats like), but it would be wonderful to stop stressing over my appearance so much. I have to get it through my head that I’m a person, not a product! Wheeeeee! Time to rebuild the ol’ self esteem.

I’m not trying to be negative, there are many wonderful things that I’ve gotten out of my caming career. For example I am naturally an introvert. I was the quiet girl in school who would get nervous and skittish when people would attempt conversations with me. Now I have the ability to approach people I’ve never spoken to before (albeit nervously, it is my nature) and carry on a conversation. I’ve become the master of preventing awkward pauses just from hosting a chatroom. It was a skill I really needed to learn and everytime I feel at ease conversing with a stranger I have you guys to thank. I have made many friends from caming that I wouldn’t trade for the world. A few of which I’ve had the honor of meeting in real life, one of which I’ve fallen in love with.

This is mah maaaaan Aren aka Aren_ (he wasn’t too creative with his screen name choice). He farts in his sleep and then blames it on his dog. He cooks me food and rubs my back when I say its sore. He keeps me in check when I get too depressed and forces me to stay positive. He is a ginger, but I don’t hold that against him. He is one Bad Motherfucker, and hopefully one day he will have my babies like a male seahorse ‘cause I’m too scared to do that shit.

So I’ll be around. If I get on MFC it will be clothed and dishelved and I’ll be there just to bullshit with you guys, but probably not for a while if that happens. In the meantime I’m always down to talk on my perv account CockWaffler if you guys would like to add that to your friends list. We can check out hot chicks together. Also I’m not going to delete my twitter or tumblr, but I’m going to see about changing my name on them because seriously… SofiaRosalie? What the fuck was I thinking? If I had any idea how much traffic my room was going to get I would’ve thought of something way better. Just call me Fee if you want.

Love your faces,

Fee

In all seriousness, I have an unhealthy obsession with Beyonce and knowing that even she looks less than perfect in freeze frames makes me love her all the more. 

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I want Beyonce to take me in her big strong arms.

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Sowwy :[

MAH NIGGA

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I’m sorry dude-I-probably-went-to-high-school-with, plenty of other girls on without the state ban for you to watch! 

Existential crisis.

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It makes me feel pretty sexy, especially the girl part. If girls were flicking the bean to thoughts of you wouldn’t that make you happy? The thought makes me ecstatic, and I would very much like to hear a woman tell me she has done just that. I’ve heard women tell me they found me entertaining, and one woman told me my ass made “her clit twitch,” but I have never heard a woman tell me she got off to one of my shows before. LADIES PLEASE TELL ME THESE THINGS, my fragile little camwhore ego needs boosting! I’ve gotten off to NikiSkyler before, there I said it.